Tia's Thread - Vicious Cycle!!!

Hello everyone,

Hope you all had a great Mother's Day weekend with your mother. I missed my Mammas this weekend. But I had a great time with my husband instead. I bought a new cell phone to blog better even on the move. 

Nope, that's an excuse. I bought a new cell phone because I am a techie and I love shopping.

Anyhoo, there is a news I have to share with you.

So next weekend is long weekend for us (Victoria Day for Ontario). So my husband and I will be in Stratford Saturday to Monday watching plays as is our yearly tradition - one by Shakespeare (Twelfth Night) and one a musical (Guys & Dolls). 

So I won't be writing this post next Monday, May 22nd.

But not to worry. I am leaving our very capable Ashi to open the thread and write it for you.

You know how incredibly funny and witty she is. I will drop in to respond/comment if we have time. 

Love

T


Now let's talk about our show. After weekends long spoilers (both hopeful and hopeless), I have finally came to conclusion about how Sonakshi must be feeling. 

There is nothing she hasn't done for Bhaiya. She embraced his family like her own, let go of her wishes and hopes due to his mother's insecurities and tantrums, left her own engagement for him causing her family distress, kept trying to make her space in his life, she even fought with his Goddess mother for him and still kept her hope alive that one day, she will be worth to him what he was to her.

But what she got is a man who is only happy with her when she does something for his family but does nothing such in return for hers, a man who never trusts her and keeps blaming her for every little thing, a man who claims to be the greatest lover ever yet never dared to stand up for her or fight for her, who never proved by his actions (not just his lofty words) that when she is alone and his entire family is standing against her, she can count on him to stand by her. 

Friday's episode proved that she was living in a fool's paradise to believe that she is more than an option, she is a necessity. She is not and she will never be regardless of what Asha and Elena tried to convince her with their limited knowledge and their lofty ideas of relationship.

She finally stood up for herself and decided to let him live the life of his choice as per his mother's instructions. And now she is free to live her life on her own terms with the people who were always there by her side.

People say that when you let love go, you regret it. If that love is true, if that love is faithful, if that love is by your side through thick and thin, in sickness and in health, in trials and tribulations - then yes. You will regret it.

But the love that comes with strings attached, the love that never around when you need support, the love that is not constant nor reliable nor trustworthy, the love that leaves you when you need them the most - that love was never yours and even if it is for a few seconds, it will vanish the moment you need it to be there for you.

So like the proverbial words, something that you need to grab tight, is never yours. Something that comes to you with their own free will, without any force or condition even though you set it free, is the love that can stand the test of time. 

What worth is love, that had to be tied with ropes of conditions and past memories? 

What worth is love, that doesn't respect, nor understand, nor stand by you in test of time?

What worth is love, if it's not given freely and only taken selfishly?

It's better to live with the past good memories, than to be forever churning within the vicious cycle of destructive love. 

EPISODE: The episode starts with Dev hearing Khatri bad mouthing Ishwari in front of the lady and her daughter. Dev tries to go in, but Sona pulls him away.

Khatri hears something and goes to investigate. He doesn't see them, but goes out to look by giving excuse of getting food for mother and daughter.

Sona pulls Dev away. Dev: Did you hear what that man was saying about my mother? What must they be thinking about her?

Sona asks him to listen.

But Bhaiya is bhaiya: I don't want to hear anything right now. 

Sona: If you weren't going to listen to me, then why did you brought me here?

Dev: That man doesn't deserve to live. I will...

Sona: You won't do anything. We didn't come here to kill him. We came here to reduce Maa's guilt. Please calm down, Dev.

Bhaiya calms down. 

Sona: Come with me.

Sona comes in.

The lady says that Khatri is not there. He will return shortly.

Sona says: We came to talk to you. He wants to talk to you.

Dev comes in.

The younger girl gets a knife seeing Dev and threatens him.

Sona and the older lady tell her to drop the knife.

The girl says that Dev is the lady's son who ruined their life.

Sona tries to pacify the girl. 

But the girl doesn't want to talk.

So Dev sits down in front of her with her knife on his throat.

He says: Kill me. If you can forgive my mother taking my life, then it's fine. My mother did a mistake. But I want to rectify it. Please forgive her. 

The older lady says: What about our lives? Will you be able to return our lost happiness? Will the past return? Did you know because of your mother, our life got ruined. Our confidence, our dreams all got broken. In return of it you are asking for forgiveness? No, this is the trick of that low life woman. She is very selfish. She doesn't care of anyone else's life.

Dev is standing in Jai Hanuman pose.

Me: Haila!!! Kya sahi pehchaana aunty. Jo baat aaj tak Sona nehin keh payee, Bijoy ne kaha, lekin kisine attention nehin diya aur Asha ki to jaane hi do, woh baat aapne keh daali? Kisiki himmat, sapne, zindegi barbad karna to Maata ka track record hain. Zara Sona se poocho, apne pyaar mein himmat, uske sapne ya phir apni zindegi mein uski jagah, kuch bhi baaki hain kya?


(Haila, you got it so right aunty. The things Sona could never say, Bijoy said but no one paid attention to him, and Asha is useless anyway, you said it so clearly. Breaking someone's confidence, dreams, life is in Maata's personal track record. Ask Sona once if she has any confidence on her love, any drams of her love and any space in her life for it left still?)


Sona picks Dev up. She tells the lady: We can understand your pain. We came here to fix everything and ask to mend the mistakes. Please listen to us. Khatri was lying to you. Dev's Maa was looking for you for years to ask for forgiveness. But Khatri never let you meet her.

The lady: Khatri was looking after us for years. He had been giving us money which we were using to live our lives. He was going to give us money today as well.


Sona: He won't give you anything. He had been taking advantage of your situation and Ishwari's guilt. He had been blackmailing Ishwari. He was giving you scraps to become God in your eyes. His selfishness was after all this. He must have asked you to remain hidden from us. Didn't he say that? He never wanted to let Dev or his mother reach you.

Me: Haila!!! I don't know why. But everything everyone is saying sounding like Ishwari's description. Doesn't everything sounds like Ishwari's character?

Let's see, she was giving scraps to Dev to keep looking like Goddess. But had selfish needs behind it. She wanted to actually keep Sonakshi away from him. She never wanted Dev and Sonakshi come together because her reality will get exposed. 

Guys, tell me if I am losing my mind or does it all sounds like Ishwari?


Sona says: Dev is standing in front of you. The man who is asking for forgiveness for his mother, how can he harm you? You have trusted Khatri for this long. Trust Dev Dixit this once. Whatever Khatri has said about Ishwari Dixit is all lies. 

Older lady: You are lying. I don't believe you. 

She starts crying.

The younger lady tells Sona that they are liers. They should step back. She asks if that's truth, why didn't she come to say sorry?

Sona says: Because she doesn't know. When this time Khatri went to blackmail her, I didn't let him reach her. She doesn't know that I am here either. She had given up on finding you. Let me call her and you will know everything from her. Just one request. She should not know that Dev is here and he knows everything. If she comes to know this, she will be broken.

The older lady says: I don't believe anything you are saying.

Sona offers to call Ishwari from her phone and requests her to talk to Ishwari.

The lady agrees.

Me: Sona, stop mollycoddling Ishwari. She doesn't break seeing her son in pain, but she will break knowing her son knows her reality? Her son knew her real face 7 years ago. He didn't even used to come home after that. Did it break her? Hell no. She is back with her emotional blackmailing business. I am sure even if she comes to know that Dev has found out her black deeds, she will conveniently find a way to blame you for it. You, darling, worry about yourself.




At Bose house, Bijoy is restless. Asha says that if he keeps pacing her and Gurudev, both will get mad.

Bijoy asks if he can rest at this time.

Asha says: Bijoy, Sona has gone for work. Stop fretting over small stuff.

Bijoy: Okay. If she has gone for work, I will call her. 

Asha: Stop. You just told me naa that you already talked to Sona about it and she had said that there is nothing between them anymore. Then why are you asking her the same question?

Bijoy: I am not asking her anything. I am just asking how she is doing.

Asha: Neither I nor Sona will believe in your lame excuses. She is very smart. She will know what's going on. Do you want her to believe that you don't trust her? She is not a teenager that has to follow curfew.

Bijoy: You believe that I don't trust my children? Ok. I will call her in some time and if she doesn't pick up her phone, I will call Dev Dixit's home.

Asha doesn't say anything.

Me: You know, strangely, Bijoy's instinct is always on point. Sona sweared by his head that what she was saying was the truth and nothing but the truth. But Bijoy knows her daughter more than she can ever know herself. Despite Sona claiming that she is only telling the truth, he can't accept that because he had been burned too many times by Sona's promises when it came to one man. However, Bijoy Baba, even if you find out that your ultimate nightmare is the truth, what can you do? Nothing, that's what.

You should have left for Kolkata when you still had a chance to escape. However, not to worry. Ishwari is fulfilling your wish for you. 


At Dixit house, Ishwari picks up the phone.

Hearing the older lady's voice she says: Memsaab (Madam)? Where were you? I have looked everywhere for you but could not find you. 

Ishwari is on speaker phone. 

Memsaab here is shocked to hear her whining. 

Ishwari: Where were you? I have been looking for you everywhere. Will you not forgive me? Please forgive me. I was helpless. I went everywhere looking for you. You used to go to Vaishnav Devi, I went there too. I met the priest there. He said that you went to Uttarakhand, so I went there. Whoever said where to go, I went. But I could not find you. 


Me: Uh, CVs, before you whitewash Maata, could you not watch your own episodes? Maata went Vaishnav Devi practically forced by Maama. So nope. She didn't go looking for this ladies.

Secondly, do you have any frigging idea how many people visit Vaishnav Devi? Expecting us to swallow that the priest there will actually recall one person who didn't have money to eat for years, let alone visit the temple during the same duration, not to mention their whereabouts is stretching the truth so thin that the holes are uber visible there.

On top of it, not only the priest, but someone else kept her going circles and they all remembered this lady who is not beauty queen (no offence meant, aunty), is as ridiculous as it is idiotic to hear. 

I will conclude that Ishwari is faking again. 

Sona: So that's why auntyji was out for so many days.

Me: And this is why you are such a sucker. Idiot...


Ishwari says: I looked for you everywhere and you called me yourself.

(Me: Jisko dhoonda Maata ne gali gali, woh Khatri ke nukkar mein mili?)

Lady says: Why didn't you ask your son to look for us? He has become a rich guy. He could have found us.

Ishwari: No, no, Memsaab. I can't even look at myself in the mirror, how will I tell my son all this? How could I include my trusting Dev in my lies? He can't see tears in my eyes. He doesn't worship God, he worships me. He won't be able to tolerate the truth. I am greedy for my son's love. If my son comes to know the truth, he will hate me.

Bhaiya is making restless face. 

Me: Nope. Manma emotions no happening. This is the lady who came up with tricks to keep her son's wife away from him. How did she face mirror then?

This is the lady who fraudulently got her son's signature on prenup. How did she face mirror then? 

This is the lady who spoke lies after lies and kept blaming her son's wife. How did she face mirror then?

This is the lady who called two people thief who were her son's wife's family despite herself being a real thief. How did she face mirror then?

Even today she is constantly emotionally blackmailing her son, how is she looking into the mirror?

So no, no amount of whitewashing, whining or pleading are going to convince me of her repentance. If no one knew about this theft including the people she robbed and Khatri, I doubt her guilt complex would have worked as much. After all, she never shown any sign of her guilt complex acting out before. 


Ishwari begs for forgiveness some more (sorry too much whining, same things on repeat)

Dev folds his hands and so does Sonakshi.


The lady says: Which crimes will you ask forgiveness for? How many of them will you be forgiven for? That day, because of you, my sister-in-law's marriage broke. She could not come out the trauma of that even today. My daughter, Kajal, remember her? She is also sitting at home until today. She could not get married. Forgiveness for what? For my husband's death? You killed my husband, my children became orphans - you are a witch. You ate my portion of happiness. Why are you silent? Tell me. Will you be able to repay them back?

Dev and Ishwari making identical faces.

Me: One minute, lady. First of all, your sister-in-law doesn't live in a poor village of Bihar where she would be sitting at home forever because one marriage broke up for lack of jewellery. She lives in Delhi. She could have married again. If she gets into lifelong trauma due to a marriage break up, she needs treatment. Psychiatric kind. Whichever clinic Maiya and Bhaiya go, she can get group subscription there. 

Secondly, your daughter seems normal. Why didn't she study and get a job? And why didn't she get married if that's what she wants? She is still young. You are talking as if she is in her 50s. 

Honestly, CVs... Could you please stop promoting unmarried status = life over crap? I am getting tired of watching it on repeat. 

And yes, I am married. And no, my life doesn't begin and end with my marital status. Had I got married to an idiot like Bhaiya with liability like Ishwari, I'd rather die single and happy. Thank you very much.


The lady says: I can't forgive you. Forget forgiveness, you don't even deserve my punishment. I want you to suffer like my children suffered. Because your capable, rich son is standing in front of me pleading for forgiveness.

Everyone gets shocked. 

Lady: Dev, what did you think? You came to be Shravan Kumar? So easily you came here to ask forgiveness for your mother's sins. We were also desperate. But we didn't steal. What she has done to us, that person doesn't even do to their enemies. She came to ask for work. I trusted her and gave her work at my home. I fed her in the plate that I fed my children with. And she stole from my home. I didn't know that I was feeding milk to a snake. Your mother used to say that you worship her. Your mother is not God. She can do anything for her selfish needs, fall any low level. She can do anything...


Me: Aha... What a tune. Finally someone spoke the reality of Ishwari. Loved the monologue. High Five, aunty...


Sona snatches the phone: What have you done? She was begging for forgiveness and you? 

Lady: I did to her what she did to me 15 years ago. 

Sona: Look auntyji...

Lady: I am seeing. She stole my happiness and made you. You have grown very big. But from where I am looking, you are appearing very small. You kept worshipping your mother like Goddess and your mother never taught you the different between God and human being. God always look for everyone's happiness. Your mother? She is just your mother. She is an ordinary thief. Go tell her that we don't need her money.

Bhaiya cries.

Me: Truth hurts, Bhaiya. The lady is speaking the truth. That is the difference between God and human. God is fair, just and always kind to all. Your mother is nowhere near Him and never will be. The sooner you learn the reality, the better it will be for you.


Sona keeps pleading. 

Me: If you had done as much pleading when Ishwari and Radha were calling your family thief, I'd have more respect for you. But let it be. Your family doesn't have any loyalty to each other except Bijoy.

When you had come back after your marriage broke, Bijoy should have threw you out on the street or demand you to return to your in-laws. That's the father you deserve, not the one who always stood beside you. A woman who can leave a father who always protected her dignity for a man who never did, doesn't deserve respect in my eyes.

The same way, a woman who doesn't stand by the man who always stood by him for a blood bond who never protected her respect, doesn't deserve respect either. 

Relationships are made by people's efforts and actions, not by blood or any other ritualistic measure. Otherwise, every man who gives birth would have been a great father and every married men would have been a great husband.

This applies to the other gender as well. Not every woman who gives birth is a great mother and not every married woman is a great wife.


Ishwari is imagining Dev coming to her: Maa, I want to ask you something. By what right did you teach me about truth? Who are you to tell me to follow the straight path? You can't break someone else's home and make yours. But you, you made your whole life. You are not mother, you are a thief. This house which I used to call a temple, is made by another house's ruin. The person whom I used to think God, I am feeling ashamed of calling her mother.

Ishwari pleads: Please listen to me. I did everything for... 

She turns but Dev is not there.

Just then she hallucinates Bhaiya entering from front door: Maa...

He runs to her and hugs her: I know that whatever you did was your desperation. You are not at fault. I know everything. You are still my Mummy and I am your Dev. I forgave you Mummy, I forgave you.

Ishwari is big smile and happy snuggles.

Then suddenly Bhaiya behind her: Did you think I will say this? That's what you thought? So that you can steal again? That's what you thought?

Ishwari: No, Dev. I made a mistake. I am willing to take any punishment.

Dev: I got punished that I was born off you. You are a lier. Everything is a lie. This home, these walls, I am - it's all lie. I can't live here anymore. I am leaving. 

Ishwari: No, no... Dev, Dev, Dev...


Me: Ooohhh dear. Finally all signs of craziness are at once. Now please don't say that Maiya is not mental patient. How many hints do we need until we finally see the weird signs? 


Khatri returns there: What are you doing here? That Ishwari has robbed them off everything. What else are you trying to get here? 

He tells the lady: Maalti sister, you take Kajal and go from here. They are very dangerous people. They tried to make fool out of you, right?

Sona: Who is making whom fool, you very well know, Khatri.

Bhaiya is fuming. Uh oh...

Khatri: Maalti, don't listen to them. They tried to kill me.

Dev attacks.

Sona tries to pull him back: Dev, Dev...

Me: It's exactly like my example of little lady and big dog. And, Bhaiya again makes everything worse. I swear this guy needs anger management class. How long will he continue using poor me, innocent me, not understand me routine while he continuously ruin everything? No wonder Ishwari keeps him in leash. He is not fit to be let out in the society.



Khatri: See? See? He tried to kill me in front of you.

Sona tries to deny.

Maalti: Enough. You call police.

Khatri: Police? What will police do?

Maalti: I will give statements that these people tried to harm my daughter. 

Sona: You can't do this. We came here for you...

Maalti: You get out from here.

Sona forces Dev out.

She tells Maalti: We came to fix everything. The mistake Ishwari ji made long ago, we came to fix that. Kajal, you have your whole life in front of you. Just think once. And stay away from this man (points at Khatri). 

Sonakshi leaves. 

Khatri says to Maalti not to believe them. He feeds them.

Me: Now there is no hope of convincing them. Bhaiya showed his reality in front of him and unlike fangirly Asha, these people are not blind. Any person who can attack on a statement which partly true, is not a safe or trustworthy person anyone can rely on. 

Sona comes out and Bhaiya missing. She looks for Dev.

Bhaiya walks on empty road thinking about his speech from long ago party where he gave credit for his success to his mother. 

So he goes and breaks someone else's car who comes screaming.

Sona comes there and tries to control him while apologising for his vandalism.

She says: He is with me.

The man says: So what? Does he think he can do anything? Who will pay for this?

Bhaiya tries to beat him when Sonakshi stops him. He whips out his wallet and stuffs money in his pocket. 

He says: You want money? Take this. But remember, this money was earned by some other home's ruin. My mother lied to me. My mother is a thief. That lady was saying the same thing. Go tell the whole world that my mother lied. She is a thief. 

The guy left saying what mad people are roaming on the street.

Me: Look, even the guy sees it. I kept saying that this Mother son duo needed therapy. But Bhaiya looks normal to everyone. 


Anyhoo, back in Dixit mansion, Suhana wakes up calling Bhaiya's name.

Ishwari comes to her, fit and fine. No cry, no whine.

Soha wants to go to her dad because she thinks that he is sad or in trouble or both and he needs her. 

Me: What? That's not telepathic connection. Have you seen Bhaiya, since he came back to his home from Bose house, as anything but sad, or in trouble or not being needy? Ever? Then?

It's like expecting Mount Everest to have snow. If you predict that, you will be 99.99% time right. 


Soha asks Ishwari to call her dad. 

Ishwari says that he is not at home. 

Soha asks her to call.

Ishwari says that he won't pick up my call.

Soha says that her Papa always picks up her phone. He loves her very much.

Ishwari thinks.

Me: Abey, landline se kar na phir. Ghar mein aur kisike paas phone nehin hain kya?

(Why don't you call from landline then? Don't anyone else has a phone here?)

And Suhana, darling your mother is no where to be found. Good to know how much concern you have for the mother who raised you. Is this the child whom Asha used to call Sona's tail? But not you fault my dear. You have the loyalty of Bose house. Non-existent. 


Sona asks Dev: What are you doing?

Dev: Sonakshi, didn't you hear what she said about my mother? But she is not at fault. My mother...

Just then Bhaiya gets Maiya's call. But he hesitates to pick it up.

Ishwari is hoping Bhaiya to pick up phone.

Here Bhaiya says: What will I say to her? I can't talk to her.

Sona says: If I pick up the phone, it will be worse. Please pick up the phone and talk to her.

Bhaiya: No, I can't talk to her. What was her fault. But that woman...

Sona says to herself: Sorry auntyji. I have to pick up the phone or you will think wrong about Dev.

She picks up the phone.

Ishwari: Dev, I...

Sona: Sorry, auntyji. This is Sonakshi. Dev is with me. He is fine. We are coming home.

Ishwari is shocked.

Me: Wait, let me just bang my head for some time before I can speak.

Okay. So here's what I see. 

Bhaiya has no problem facing Maiya as long as she doesn't know that he knows.

But now that she knows that he knows, he can't talk to her. 

So he is whining on the road and generally vandalising other people's property (not his car though).

Sonakshi wasn't as apologetic about the false accusation on her father and brother as she is about the true accusation on Ishwari of the same crime.

Great!!!

Ishwari could hang around fine (minus minor garden variety hallucinations) until only Bhaiya knew the reality. But the moment she found out that Sonakshi knows her reality, her face looked like as if her lifelong preaching status is permanently gone. Now how will she give philosophical, holier than thou lectures when her own deeds is blacker than Angus cow? 

PRECAP: 

Dixit house, all are present.

Ishwari says: The path I showed you, I could not walk on that path. Please forgive me.

She gets a heart attack (?) and falls down. Every one rushes to her.

Me: What did I say? Bhaiya going hospital? Then who will be blackmailed? Nope. Maiya gotta go hospital for blackmail part 2. 

Maiya + Hospital + Blackmail + Bhaiya = Sonakshi ka khel khatam (Sonakshi's game over)

And the vicious cycle continues.

NO RULES!!! YAY!!!